Everybody
had there fair share of pain, everyone cope with them in their own
little way. But we still hadn't learned that growing up is all about
getting hurt. And then getting over it. You hurt. You recover. You move
on. And sure enough you're just going to get hurt again. But each time,
you learn something.
Each time you come out of
it a little stronger, and at some point you realize that there are more
flavors of pain than ice cream. There's the hollow pain of leaving
someone behind, taking the next step forward, moving out of your comfort
zone and venturing into the unknown. There's the big, whirling pain of
life upending all of your plans and expectations. Theres the sharp
little pains of failure, and the more subtle aches of successes that
did'nt give you what you thought they would. There are the vicious,
stabbing pains of hopes being torn up. The sweet little pains of finding
others, giving them your love, just to feel the severe, stabbing pain
of someone letting you down and treating you like trash. There's the
steady pain of empathy that you shrug off so you can stand beside a
wounded friend and help them bear burdens.
And
if youre very, very lucky, there are a very few blazing hot little pains
you feel when you realize that you are standing in a moment of utter
perfection, to wake up to see her face sleeping beside you, finally
getting that job promotion you well deserved, seeing your first born for
the first time, feelings which at the same time cannot possibly last,
and yet will remain with you for life.
Everyone is down on pain. because they forget something important about it: Pain is for the living. Only the dead don't feel it.
Pain
is a part of life, sometimes its a big chunk sometime's it isn't, but
either way it's part of the big picture, the deep music, the great game.
Pain does two things: It teaches you, tells you that youre alive, then
it passes away and leaves you changed. It leaves you wiser, sometimes.
Sometimes it leaves you stronger. Either way, pain leaves it's mark and
everything that happens to your life will involve it in one degree or
another.
Personally I deal with pain every damn
day of my life. pains caused by: Cooking blunders I'd had to eat
anyway. Tax insanity and rushing around trying to hack my way in a
jungle of numbers. Late bills. Unpleasant jobs that gave horrible
headaches. The occasional nights when the loneliness ached so badly that
it made you weep. The memories of a loved one that broke your heart
which the more you want to bury in the depths of your mind keeps on
resurfacing every now and then, The occasional social gathering during
which you wanted to escape so badly you were willing to go out the
bathroom window. Muscle aches and pull you never had when you were
younger, the annoyance as the price of gas kept going up to some
ridiculuos degree, the irritation with unruly neighbors, being stood up
by someone, planned dates being cancelled at the last minute, brainless
media personalities, and various politicians who all seemed to fall
somewhere between the extremes of "crook" and "moron"
You know.
That's all part of this tragic thing I like to call "Life"
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